“when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. because you are. && that pain you feel? that’s life. the confusion and fear? that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better, && that something is worth fighting for.”—
Honestly, i don’t trust anyone. I just can’t. Trust is like a myth to me. You trust someone and they just end up throwing it back in your face. For example, there was a girl who trusted this boy with absolutely everything. She told him everything. She trusted him with her heart and soul. And for a while it was good; really good actually. She had never been happier. Then, things started getting rocky and she found herself not being able to trust him like she did before. One day, she mentioned that she didn’t trust anyone and he got absolutely furious. He said he couldn’t believe that she didn’t trust him, even though he knew exactly why she didn’t. She told him she was sorry and that she did trust him out of all people, which wasn’t exactly a lie. So she trusted him and gave him her all. Couple months later, he stopped talking to her. In a blink of an eye, he was gone; wanted nothing to do with her. She text him once saying, “I told you i didn’t trust anyone and you made me trust you. You made me believe.” All he said was no.
You know lately it seems like i don’t have a happy place. Everywhere i’m at is no where i want to be. I use to have a happy place; the happiest place anyone had ever known.. in his arms. Nothing was ever wrong there. Everything seemed perfect but obviously it wasn’t cause nothing is ever perfect. Happy place.. happy place.. happy place.. nope can’t think of one. Of course, i do have places that i visit and it can make me happy but it’s not enough that i can actually call it MINE. When it’s mine, it’ll have to be a place i can go whenever i want and not seem out of place. It’ll have to be a part of me. It’ll have to be a place that will always be there. So when i find a place that can make me happier than no other and make me feel free, i’ll let you know.
“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”—jim morrison